He did not shout at her. I want to be fair to the man; he behaved better in that barn than anyone had a right to expect. He looked at the box for a long moment, and then he looked at her, and he said, “There are two hundred of them.”
And she said, “Roland—”
And he said, “You told me you couldn’t have children.”
Then he walked out to the car park and he did not come back in, and about ten minutes later somebody’s headlights went down the county road.
Sabina turned on Junia. She got about six words into something before my daughter cut her off.
Junia said — and she did not raise her voice either, and I do not know where in the world she got that from — “You didn’t come here for me. You came so your husband would see you being a mother. So I made sure he saw it.”
Then she said, “You can stay for the cake if you want. There’s a seat at table eleven.”
There was. There was a place card with her name on it. Junia had set it that morning.
Sabina left.
And this is the part I have never been able to explain properly to anybody who asks about that night.
The barn did not erupt. Nobody cheered. A hundred and fifty people stood there in the most uncomfortable silence I have ever been in, and then Micah’s uncle, God bless him forever, put the music back on, and my daughter turned around and asked me to dance with her, and I did, and neither of us said one word for the whole song.
I put the lid back on the box myself, later, when the floor had cleared.
PART 5 — WHAT I COULDN’T GIVE HER
Sabina and Roland Frayne separated that summer. I know that because it is a small county, not because anybody told me.
I do not know where she is now and none of my daughters have heard from her, and I have stopped expecting the phone to do anything at all, which took about a year.
Junia and Micah have a place out past the reservoir. Willa is a dental hygienist in Bristow Vale. Cori is finishing her degree. Bess is in her second year and thinks she wants to teach. Neve is eighteen and works at the garden center and has plans that change monthly. Tansy is fifteen and is the funniest person in this family by a wide margin.