***
By the eighteenth birthday listed on their records, I had practiced losing them.
I thought I knew.
I cooked their favorites: garlic chicken and buttery mashed potatoes.
Chris dropped by with a cake and hugged them both. Andrea called too, like she did every birthday. When Chris left, he wouldn't meet my eyes.
That should've warned me.
***
After dinner, Emily set down her fork.
I cooked their favorites.
"Dad, we need to get something."
Grace stood too quickly.
They went upstairs together.
I listened to their footsteps.
When they came back, each carried one of the old towels.
"We need to get something."
My chair scraped the floor as I stood.
"What are those doing out?"
Emily laid the white towel on the table. Grace placed the pink one beside it.
"Dad," Emily said, "please don't hate us for what you're about to see."
"Hate you? Why would I hate you?"
Grace's chin trembled.
"What are those doing out?"
"For three years, we've been lying to you," Grace said.
My hand tightened around the chair.
"Lying about what?"
"Where we were going," Emily said.
"The study groups? The weekend plans?"
They both nodded.
"The weekend plans?"
I took a step back from the towels.
"Did you find them?"
Grace stared at me.
"Your other family," I said.
Emily's face folded. "Dad, no. That's not what we were doing!"
"Did you find them?"
"It's okay," I said too quickly. "If you found something, I'll help. I mean it. I won't make you choose."
Grace pushed the white towel toward me.
"This isn't about leaving you."
"Then what is it?"
"Open it," Emily said.
I unfolded the towel.
"I mean it."
Something slipped from the folds and landed between us.
Three plane tickets.
Three seats.
"No," I whispered.
Grace said, "We leave in three days."
"We haven't been back there in 18 years."
Three plane tickets.
"We know," Emily said.
"Babysitting. Tutoring. Dog walking. Weekend shifts once we were old enough," Grace said. "Every dollar we could save."
"For this?" I asked.
"For you," Emily said.
I shook my head. "I can't go back there."
"Every dollar we could save."
"You can," Grace said. "But we'll go together."
She pulled the pink towel closer.
"There's more."
I wanted to refuse before the room cracked open wider.
But my daughters were watching me, and I had spent 18 years teaching them not to run from hard things.
