That was the moment I almost lost my place.
For years, I had imagined her embarrassment as justice. But seeing it did not make me feel powerful. It made me feel tired. It made me remember being six years old at the kitchen table, showing her a drawing of the moon, waiting for her to put it on the refrigerator.
It made me remember wanting less than praise.
Just a place.
I finished my speech with a story I had not planned to tell.
“When I was a little girl,” I said, “there was a storm that knocked out power in our neighborhood for almost two days. I remember sitting in the dark with a flashlight under my chin, trying to make my brother laugh. I remember being afraid every time the wind hit the windows. But I also remember looking across the street and seeing one house with a generator. One glowing window in a row of dark homes.”
